why do we have to do his,I think it's very hard to live. I can't concentrate.and I'm very nervous of a lot of things. There weren' any significant changes in my life....anyway I don't know who is my friend or not. are they selfish, or am I selfish. but I have much badder life, ok I think tahat they aren't so easy. J's parents have divorced too, so it isn't so easy I can understand it, but my father...I don't know. He doesn't want to realise or I am so stupid.